Do you ever wonder what your life would be like if you could turn back time and subtract ONE event?
Clearly it's impossible, but if you could subtract a parent's accidental death, a bad decision, or some words you thoughtlessly uttered... it's interesting to imagine where you could be today. Thinking about it is probably not healthy, but I've been doing it anyway... sort of like eating corn nuts.
Not that long ago, I had only one thing I desired to change. Now I can think of 3 or 4 things. I suppose (hope) maybe that's a function of getting older, and not a sign that I am making more mistakes... (here, I warped into about an hour-long reverie, during which I finished three cups of coffee, and from which I procured exactly zero answers) I just think I'm ignoring simple evidence/signs, and not trusting my gut.
Indulge me a minute. I tend to analyze things to DEATH. Upon analyzing a possible scenario, I come up with 3 or 4 possible results. Being a fairly complex thinker, (this is not a point of pride) I tend to place equal weight on all results, instead of using the theory of Occam's Razor to deduce which is likely correct. Then, for whatever reason, I go with the most complex of the possibilities, instead of the most simple.
For instance, in relationships, I tend to think "if I did this, then this, then this... and she did that, that and that... it could work well." Instead, I should have thought "this is way too complex, I believe I will move on."
I need to remember that about myself, and adjust accordingly... because there's no going back and changing anything - time travel* is just not possible. I am positive about this - I have analyzed it to DEATH.
Is there anything you'd like to do over?
*Yeah, go ahead and click that link. These people are SERIOUS! (and it IS sort of a fascinating scenario)