Wednesday, February 18, 2009

The Long Goodbye to My Best Friend

While petting Regis last night, I noticed a sizeable lump on his neck, and his yelp indicated it was clearly sore.

The vet confirmed my worst suspicion this morning, lymphoma. We won't be 100 percent certain until the pathology report comes back, but he's seen it a million times and there is little doubt in his mind.

I had pets as a kid, but have never bonded with them the way I have with Regis. He doesn't even seem like a dog to me, he seems like a full blown member of the family.

As usual, he's at my feet right now and those big, brown eyes are looking up at me. It's clear he's frustrated by the pain. I would do anything to take it away, but canine lymphoma never ends positively.

I expected that he and Grayson would be good buddies and do everything together. The first word Gray learned in sign language was "puppy." At dinnertime, Grayson sneaks bites of his food off the edge of the table for Regis to pick up. And to think he isn't even old enough to keep our "puppy" in his memory.

It's likely we have only three to six months left. You can bet we'll make the best of it, and be thankful for the seven great years he was here.

I miss him already.

10 comments:

Violet said...

It just seems surreal. Regis is the first dog that I've ever had as a part of my life. I can't imagine a better pup! I thought we'd go through this with Kramer years before anything could possibly occur with Reg...

Chris Johnson said...

OMG! It makes me so sad to hear this. I am so sorry.

Diana said...

That is very sad. He is such a great dog! And he will be missed by many of us. :o(

Blogarita said...

This is very sad. Like you, I didn't really bond with the pets we had growing up, but have been closer to the ones I've had as an adult.

We were all upset when we lost our cat Mars last spring. He died so suddenly that we really didn't get to say goodbye. I'm comforted by the fact that you have some time left to spend with Regis and plan to make the most of it.

C said...

awwwwwwwwww my heart is so sad, and ready to break into pieces for you guys. i am so so SO very sorry. :(

do you have videos of him to show grayson when he is older?

you will be in my prayers.


C

Max said...

So sorry to hear about this Dave. When that prognosis comes it is never easy. Especially when there is a time frame like 6 months. The best you can do is to make Regis as comfortable as possible. I know when my wife lost her Service Dog 4 years ago to cancer that we gave her as much comfort as we could.

Max...

Mike A. said...

Over the years we've lost a couple of our dear pups to cancer. Best advice I ever got is to never, ever let them suffer. And the "when" part of that is the hardest decision you'll ever have to make.

My deepest sympathies to all of you, and my eternal love to Regis.

Patrick Dwyer said...

One day at a time and each day is a celebration of what you have.

Ari said...

:(

Lightning Bug's Butt said...

Ah, I miss him already, too. Sounds like a first-rate mammal!